Some time ago I came to the hard realization that keeping my beloved Fuji S12-S touring bike just wasn't the best idea. This was mostly brought on by the very slow-coming realization that the bike was just not comfortable to ride. I have known the bike was too big for me for a long time. My "fitted" frame size is 58cm... the Fuji is a 62cm. Too much of a jump. But I could still throw my leg over it and pedal it around, and in ideal circumstances it wasn't that big of a deal.
But in less-than-ideal circumstances, such as logging miles on the side of the road alongside traffic, the bike became too much. Away from the safety of the secluded bike path, the too-large frame was a little too unruly. Too much of a reach to the bars, and too much of a reach down to the down tube to shift gears. I stopped enjoying the ride.
I also began remembering my time on my Cannondale when I first got it. That bike felt so alive under me! I would go out and just ride it for the sake of riding it--something I never ever felt compelled to do on my Fuji. A couple of months ago when Keri and I tried out a bike path to the west of Portland, I thought about riding my Fuji--and decided against it, opting for my mountain bike.
In an ideal world, Keri and I would own a house. We would not feel compelled to move for several, several years, if at all. And I would have space to store the Fuji, to occasionally pull it out, dust it off, and pedal it around for old times sake. But this isn't that ideal world, and space is scarce. The next time we move, I don't want to box it up again. I currently have two bikes that are still boxed up from the move to Portland, simply because they take up less space in a box.
So I let the ole Fuji go. I posted an ad on craigslist for $350, and today I met up with a young gentleman who gave me the full $350 for it. It was kind of hard letting it go but it was just time. I had some good times riding it and better memories working on it. The bottom line is that one day I realized I was more attached to it as simply a "thing" or a machine, and not as a bike to be ridden. And a bike that isn't ridden, isn't really a bike.
Sayonara, Fuji-san
The bike's final rendition under my care, minus the addition of toe clips on the pedals. Sure was pretty. Taken on December 14, 2014 |
The day I bought 'er, in all of her 1980 glory. Taken on August 12, 2011 |
Brock,
ReplyDeleteIt is hard to let go of things we have cared for and imagined spending time with, or on, in the Fuji's case. But if it doesn't fit, and as you said, there is limited space, allowing it to move into the world, into the right hands, reflects a kind of grace.
I appreciate the honest way you shared about your attachment to the bike, your epiphany, and the story of finding it a home.
I look forward to reading some more of your posts, friend.